Pit stop

So some months back I fell to pornography, for no other reason than I lacked endurance in a trying situation and since then it’s been a cycle of "Ah! I'm free now." Then falling back. I decided to pull back from the flashy, fun videos to blogposts until I got rid of the sin. I ended up liking blogging a lot more. It's concise. Precise. Efficient. Anyway, I've tried everything. Nothing's working. What gives me hope though is back when I was in the same situation, I just woke up one day and wasn't in the mood... for years. Not just days, weeks or months. Full healing. I don't know how it happened. So it won't be my discipline that frees me. It will be the power of God. Of course even discipline is by God's mercies (through daily communion) but sometimes something more is needed. Why did I have to say this on the world wide web and not to an accountability partner? Because I'm a dramatic dude that likes a riveting story lol. "He defeated the lion, he defeated the tiger but the dragon seems to be taking him down. BUT THEN..." *Cliffhanger* And maybe this will help someone along their journey. And also, over the years I've learnt that an eclipse is best seen through a tinted glass. What really keeps me going though is the presence of my friend and Saviour. The love that proceeds from Him is overwhelming. He doesn't accuse or condone the sins of the repentant. He just loves a person to wholeness. However long it takes.